2/1/05

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im just so tired...i told u im sorry...its my fault i know i shldnt have stayed up so late at the swimming complex...i already said its my fault but when am i so sad until i kick my phone around...as u can see..its the first time i drop ur phone first...im really very sad...infact right now im even sobbing...yes its my fault...

TOTally...im sorry...IM just a fucked up guy...dun understand y u love me..but i love u so much..some times ur words really hurt me...dun think i didnt hear u...i know what u said... :'( i think i really cant slp tonite even tho i drank 5 cups of vodka 100+... my head hurts like shit...but anyone know? everyone just know how to scold me...reprimand me...i know u are sick...i know...but my phone really no batt...when i went to take the phone i was wondering why the phone was switched off..den i switched on...but once i press any key..it went flat...im dead sorri dear...

signing off with me sobbing thinking why am i such a person...